go retro with edna million

it's a fact

Liquor and fake nails a bad typist makes.


The only thing men are really good for is hooking up audiovisual equipment.
My DVD player from Christmas is still not connected. I am at a loss. Yes, me the brilliant creative genius can't hook up a DVD player. Shut up.


"Someone you don't know is someone you don't know.
Get a firm grip girl, before you let go
for every hand extended, another lies in wait
Keep your eye on that one.
Anticipate.
Ani DiFranco, "Anticipate".


"Punk is sitting in a half-dark room alone wishing you had Valiums with an indifferent record playing wanting to claw the stuffing out of the chair but feeling futility in your fingernails. Punk is hating poetization of your condition." Lester Bangs, "Everybody's Search For Roots" 1977.


"Now I'm smoking cigarettes
and I strive for purity,
And I slip just like the stars into obscurity.
'Cause every time I hear that melody,
well, puts me up a tree,
And the grapefruit moon, one star shining,
is all that I can see."
Tom Waits, "Grapefruit Moon".

"It's possible to love a human being if you don't know them too well. " Charles Bukowski

controversy

Ok, while I do have some conservative beliefs, gay marriage is not one of them.
And here's my argument. I am doign a speech on this next week in class and actually didn't have a side until I did the research and thought about the topic through and through. I posted this in Jessica Lovejoy's comments on her post about the same topic.
Thought I'd share it here.
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It's amazing when you break down the structure of the argument against gay marriage. You have the "history of marriage" argument. Well, marriage has a diverse history of not only being a religious ritual, and a completely secular civil union, but it has also been temporary handfasting that expired after a year-and-a-day, and it used to be simply the transfer of control of a woman from father to husband. Hmmm.... not a history I want to hold onto, there.

Also, should the rights of religious groups to freely practice their religion overrule the rights of same-sex couples to seek equality in the eyes of the law?

And the idea of marriage being purely for procreation and the "optimal" environment to raise a family. So by not letting gays marry, they are protecting the "CHILDREN" from non-optimal family structures? Well, they still let divorced people with kids remarry, right? That's not optimal. They still let single parents roam free (hey! that's me!) despite their NON-OPTIMAL-NESS, so it makes sense that it is simply a GAY issue and not a "optimal for the children" issue. And why then are people allowed to marry and not have children if that's the whole point of marriage? If a couple gets married and doesn't have children within, oh let's say ten years, should they be forced to divorce?

And gay marriage is ungodly and immoral? Well, what about the fact that atheists can get married? How about Wiccans? Should we ban all non-christians from marrying? No, because marriage is not a religious institution unless you CHOOSE it to be such.

I come back to argument of the "rich history and tradition of marriage" which is often cited in anti gay marriage articles. Back .. oh 60+ years ago, we had a rich history of repressing women and what about our rich history in slavery and racial segregation? It wasn't until 1967 that interracial marriages were legalized and despite a large percentage of the population who protested, the courts passed it through (another argument - the courts shouldnt make these decisions, that legislation should) - and we got over that one, didn't we? The stability of family and procreation didn't come to a stand still. The world didn't end. Black men didn't break in and steal their white daughters for inter-breeding experiments.

There are 400 state & 1000 federal legal (secular and civil) rights that are awarded to married couples. So again marriage is not just a holy religious institution.

Haven't we learned anything?
They also argue to give same sex couples CIVIL UNIONS instead of "marriage".
I thought we have already experienced in this country how well "separate but equal" really works.

headless chicken

I've been playing catch-up with my coursework this past week. I am pretty much all caught up now. I've applied to the Univeristy here in town and I am debating applying at some others in Chicago. I'm a bit frightened of the prospect of moving to Chicago alone with a kid, not knowing anyone there. But there are a bunch more schools to choose from than the ... one ... in this town. Although a good school, I am still interested in Columbia College and some others in the windy city.

I've been getting applications and scholarship offers from some smaller state colleges because of my high GPA and membership in Phi Theta Kappa. Nothing that calls to me though. I've always had difficulty committing. I need to KNOW for SURE that something is RIGHT, before I commit to it. That goes for career, jobs, friends, and relationships. Not to say I haven't flubbed up every once in a while ... ok, often, but in general, I am an analyzer. I make lists. Pros and cons. And then I make decisions based on the evidence. This is one of the reasons I have floundered in my education and career for so many years. I fear getting 'locked in' to something for the rest fof my life that isn't what I was 'meant to do'. I'm not quite sure what I was 'meant to do'. I have too many things I love and am good at. Maybe I was meant to do any of those things. Maybe I was meant to work in graphic and web design. Maybe I was meant to be a struggling artist or photographer. Maybe I was meant to be a professor of Literature or Communications or do research & write. Maybe I was meant to be an entrepreneur and start my own business. Maybe I was just meant to be a fabulous mom, wife and domestic goddess but I wasted my skills on someone who wasn't right for me and didn't know what to do with my fabulousness.

And when I do find something or someone I think I was meant for, sometimes 'it' doesn't think it was meant for me.
Obstacles.
Is life supposed to be smooth? Are you supposed to find your calling and then the path to it should be easy breezy if it is truly what was meant to be? Are you supposed to have a simple, argument-less, heartache free relationship with the person you were meant to be with? Or is it all just a series of missed connections and lucky fumbles? Should we bother working so hard to make our life what we want if it all relies on a veritable miracle of strategically aligned forces that are all in harmony? I'd like to think I have some control over how my life turns out and who is in it and what I do with myself, but I feel very helpless and vulnerable right now. Applications sent, jobs being applied for, and I'm exposed ... it's just me, waiting.

dress

I just bought this dress. I'm bad. But I am in love with it! Don't scold me. Now I just need some warm weather.

punk toddler

The Kid would not let me put any shirt on him except for this striped jumper thing that is too short for him. He was screeching. He never did thatbefore about clothes. Sheesh. Then he wanted to wear my belt. Then I thought, heck, he needs some dippity do in his hair to complete the ensemble.

o my valentine

I had a wonderful Valentines' Day Eve. I had one hour of sleep.
I will describe how I feel today through a pictoral montage.

This morning:

My plans for the rest of today:

knit #1

My very first knitting project. I designed it myself. 15 sts. Duplicated sts the heart because intarsia was too freakin' hard.

I am proud.

I bought more yarn. I am rarin' to go!

very good things 1

I'm going to share with you some of my recent favorite sites.

This cartoon strip.My favorite archives are this one, this one, and this one.

This artist's website. Buy a tshirt or something, he's a friend's husband and his stuff is great! That painting for sale is pretty cheap for you art collectors! I would TOTALLY snatch that up!

Vintage Robot Porn?

I must have one of these Tramp Lamps. Buy me the Bianca!

journey

Well, I am still sick but better than yesterday. I can talk slightly above a hoarse whisper today and feel less sinus pain, if any. Still conjested. I left the house today for two reasons:
1. Needed new videos from the library. Being inside for so long, we have watched the videos we had too many times.

2. Italian Wedding Soup. I have been looking for this and I couldn't find it at the grocery stores I usually go to so I went to Schnucks because they have a better produce section (needed orange peppers and grape tomatos for my pasta salad) and I figured they might have the soup, too. They did but they only had 3 cans left! I bought two. Apparently someone else has discovered the wonder that is Italian Wedding Soup. The only brand that appears to make it is Campbell's Select. Of course I could make it but I'm too sick and tired to do that.

We're watching Charlotte's Web. I love the rat named Templeton, he's the best part of the movie. Naptime. I am soooo bored stuck in this house all sick. It sucks!

I am knitting a scarf for myself for valentines day though. It's red and thinner. I might try to put a heart on it. I need white yarn though and I don't want to leave the house for much of any reason.

ill

I'm really sick. Laryngitis and a bad a sinus infection. I am taking so much medicine it's not even funny, I can hardly keep track, this one twice a day, this one three times a day, this one once a day....and then the kid is still on antibiotics 3 times a day. Ugh. I can barely speak but a whisper, so it is super hard watching The Kid. He doesn't listen to me whisper, "Get Down! I mean it! I'm serious!". It just doesn't have the same seriousness as when I say it sternly and loudly in my booming mad mommy voice.
I feel horrid. I am taking a nap with The Kid today. I try to eat and I want to vomit. I'm not hungry but I need to eat and when I try I get nauseus.